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Choices
Just had a big fight. No, not one of those that we walk away from with blues and blacks. The arguement kind. I don't know what sparked it off. Maybe it was just the travelling blues sitting in a car for 4 hours, or maybe it was just something that we bottle up and when it blows up, it really explodes. I have a feeling it was the latter.
The fight made me reflect a little. In life, we have to make many choices. Simple ones like what colour pants should I wear to harder ones like should I buy a Toyota Celica TRD or a Toyota RAV4 (The choice I made here is obvious to those who know me but I will blog about it another day). This is where I realised that whatever choice I make, it will always be WRONG. Someone always ends up getting hurt. Sometimes it is the ones that you love, sometimes it is your self that loses in the end. But the sad part is we still have to make that choice or everyone will end up hurt.
I kid you not. If I chose the blue pants, someone who hates blue will be like "YUCK!". If I chose, not to go to someones's party. they will get hurt........etc etc. If you make a choice that made you happy, that is selfish. In this world, it may be the survival of the fittest, but you would still be a selfish b****rd. If we walk away from the choices to make, we are cowards. That sucks, doesn't it? But that is life. In the end, we just have to mend the wounds that we caused only to open them again another time we have to make choices.
Just feeling really blue and red with anger (that would make me purple?). I dunno why, but I am still boiling inside. Over what, even I ask myself. Maybe, I'll just go rent a bike and ride round Singapore feeling the breeze (dusty I might add) in my face. I would rent a convertible but I just found out that NO ONE in Singapore is renting convertibles anymore. Even the one where I rented the MR-S before has closed down. The only place I found that do have convertibles in theire fleet is looking at a long term lease of 2-3 years........oh well. As always, life sucks.
Don't make demands of others what you yourselves cannot give. Sometimes, when we give and give and give until there is no more to give, we will blow up. Then we will want to take and usually very demanding in taking. How does one balance giving and taking? I dun know. I suck at that coz throughout my life I have always been the one giving. I think I spoil the people that I love by giving them what they want when they want. I sometimes feel that my sister is the way she is because I have always given way to her when she demands for things. Same goes with my mum. I wonder is it favourtism or due to the fact that I hardly demanded much from my mother that she gives in to my sisters whelms more than mine. It's too late to change that. And being humans and all, the more you give to people, the more demanding they become until the point of no return. When you start asking, you become the unreasonable one. Once again, you lose for being the nice guy. Such is the laws of society.
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